Post by Rick Majors on Nov 17, 2020 18:53:36 GMT -5
I'm so tired. I feel like I haven't slept in weeks. But what's weird is that I had a great sleep last night. For the first time in what feels like forever, I slept all night long. Deeply. For eight straight hours... actually, a little more. And yet, today I woke up feeling like a truck ran over my face. Worse... I feel like I just wrestled Grimm.
Is my body not used to sleep? Is it treating it like a harmful experience now? Does it not know what to do at this point? Or did it finally realize what sleep is actually like and now it craves it? When you don't have something for a very long time, you learn to live without it. Then, when it finally arrives, you're reminded of what you've been missing. And it hurts.
That's how I feel right now. The Genesis Championship. A tag team with Grimm. It's been so long. Championships and partnerships are two things that I've gone without for years. I didn't truly realize how much I missed them until now. And now I'm scared. Scared that they'll both go away.
On paper, you may consider this upcoming contest to be a mismatch. Grimm and I are established competitors in PCW. We've won multiple championships here... well, mostly HE'S won multiple championships here, but you get the idea. Except for Razor's cup of coffee with the Underground title, our opponents are relatively new to this company and relatively unproven. But yet, they beat Kyle Shane and Tyrone Smith recently. They've battled it out for a chance to compete for my Genesis Title, leaving Alexa Black bruised and beaten in the process. They've been impressive. And they're ready. They're young and they're hungry and I'm sure they're itching at the opportunity to beat two more legends.
Hopefully Grimm doesn't let that happen. I say that because, in my current state, I have no idea how I'm going to perform on Trauma. I may just fall asleep on the ring apron. And that would be awful. That would be tragic. I've finally found a partnership again after all these years and there's a good chance that I'll end up leaving Grimm out to dry.
I can't let that happen. But how can I stop it? Can I really count on myself to go out there and make a difference? Or will I fail, again?
Most nights I try to sleep. I know my mind and my body need it, so I try very hard. I follow all the guidelines. I keep my room dark. I don't have a phone or tablet or TV or laptop in there. I drink some warm milk. I head to bed at the same time each night. I even have a white noise machine. And it doesn't work. I toss and turn for hours before I give up and go to the couch to watch TV. Sometimes I nod off during a show, but most times I'm up all night watching reruns of old sitcoms in a desperate attempt to drown out my racing thoughts.
If I can't even count on myself to be able to sleep, how can I count on myself to be able to wrestle? And how can Grimm count on me?
Does he even count on me? Or does he know that he'll be going into our matches alone? Does he just consider me a warm body that he knows will stand on the apron calmly while he wrestles a two-on-one match? Does he even think of me at all...???
Is my body not used to sleep? Is it treating it like a harmful experience now? Does it not know what to do at this point? Or did it finally realize what sleep is actually like and now it craves it? When you don't have something for a very long time, you learn to live without it. Then, when it finally arrives, you're reminded of what you've been missing. And it hurts.
That's how I feel right now. The Genesis Championship. A tag team with Grimm. It's been so long. Championships and partnerships are two things that I've gone without for years. I didn't truly realize how much I missed them until now. And now I'm scared. Scared that they'll both go away.
On paper, you may consider this upcoming contest to be a mismatch. Grimm and I are established competitors in PCW. We've won multiple championships here... well, mostly HE'S won multiple championships here, but you get the idea. Except for Razor's cup of coffee with the Underground title, our opponents are relatively new to this company and relatively unproven. But yet, they beat Kyle Shane and Tyrone Smith recently. They've battled it out for a chance to compete for my Genesis Title, leaving Alexa Black bruised and beaten in the process. They've been impressive. And they're ready. They're young and they're hungry and I'm sure they're itching at the opportunity to beat two more legends.
Hopefully Grimm doesn't let that happen. I say that because, in my current state, I have no idea how I'm going to perform on Trauma. I may just fall asleep on the ring apron. And that would be awful. That would be tragic. I've finally found a partnership again after all these years and there's a good chance that I'll end up leaving Grimm out to dry.
I can't let that happen. But how can I stop it? Can I really count on myself to go out there and make a difference? Or will I fail, again?
Most nights I try to sleep. I know my mind and my body need it, so I try very hard. I follow all the guidelines. I keep my room dark. I don't have a phone or tablet or TV or laptop in there. I drink some warm milk. I head to bed at the same time each night. I even have a white noise machine. And it doesn't work. I toss and turn for hours before I give up and go to the couch to watch TV. Sometimes I nod off during a show, but most times I'm up all night watching reruns of old sitcoms in a desperate attempt to drown out my racing thoughts.
If I can't even count on myself to be able to sleep, how can I count on myself to be able to wrestle? And how can Grimm count on me?
Does he even count on me? Or does he know that he'll be going into our matches alone? Does he just consider me a warm body that he knows will stand on the apron calmly while he wrestles a two-on-one match? Does he even think of me at all...???
