Post by hostile on May 16, 2006 14:07:49 GMT -5
[Anaheim, CA]
I finally returned home to California within several hours of making my little purchase. As I pulled into the drive way and turned the car off, I just stared at the product for a good ten minutes or so. It was an eleventh hour purchase, but dear god did I ever feel dirty about it now. All throughout the plane ride home all I could do was curse myself in my head for being stupid. But then call myself a genius for buying them, knowing full well whatever pain or issues I had going on could be wiped out temporarily.
So picking up the bottle as the pills inside rattled, I unscrewed the cap and popped it off. Oh you better fucking believe that I was ready to start taking em three at a time. But then my memory bank kicked in with the remembrance of September 23, 2001. That was the day that Kristen was born into this world and as I sat back and thought long and hard, all I could do was wonder.....do I even know myself anymore?
[Flashback]
-Willard-
It's....a GIRL!! HELL FUCKING YEAH, IT'S A GIRL!! WOOOOO
I was ecstatic with joy at the birth of my daughter. I looked different in two thousand one, clean shaven. Short hair. Wasn't AS MUCH of a wreck as I was now. So as the umbilical cord got cut from Kristen, and she was cleaned up..They handed her off to her mother. I was now a proud father and was getting that feeling inside of me like everything would be ok. Even over her screaming tirade, having just been born into this world. Yep, life couldn't have been any better back then as shown by the look on my face.
[End Flashback]
Shaking my head slowly, I clutched onto the bottle with as tight of a grasp as I did Terrance the night before. Now just wasn't the time to get under my skin, and inside the house I saw lights were on. That was another problem for me right there. Putting the feel of sex in front of the feel of being a father. Granted both Destiny and Evelyn were hot in their own rights, I was done with one and had already been with the other. I still had feelings for Destiny however. I mean, me and her had been through EVERYTHING. I'm not sure how much of a toll it's taken on the children, but I know little Kristen clings onto me for dear life every time we are split and then reunited. Autumn is too young to understand the magnitude of what's happening, but yeah...I loved my daughters more than any female I could date, be engaged to or ever marry. So the cap was placed back on the bottle and placed deep inside of my coat. I then grabbed my pimp cane and gym bag, with hopping out of my car to follow. On my way to the door, I recited a poem I thought of on my way home during the flight to LAX.
[Bitter Tears
Taste So Cold
Running Down My Face
The Routine Draws Old
Entering My Mouth
They Taste Of Death
The Last Sound I Hear
Isn't My Heartbeat, But My Final Breath
That's Just How I Feel
In This Stage of Age
Coming Undone On The Inside
Is Inner Coiled Rage
Call Me A Rattlesnake
With A Warning to Beware
Come On, Play With Me
It's Something of You I Dare
Taste the Defeat
As I Will Take The Loss
Buried Where I Lie
Shown Who's the True Boss
Laughter like A Jester
Except This Is No Joke
Shuffle the Deck Once More
Give Scarring A Little Poke
Gone Once More As I See
Nothing to Feel That I Haven't Before
This Game of Chutes and Ladders
Is Quite the Childish Bore
So Withdraw My Emotions
Using An ATM Card
Cut Loose the Ties That Bind
With A Large Metal Shard
I am Jason Lee Willard
Age Twenty Eight
On Occasions like This
I Wonder..What Is My Destined Fate?]
And then I relapsed for a second into a trance after letting those words play through my head like a broken record. I didn't realize the door had been opened, when I fell forward. Thankfully the girls we're there to catch me. Being pulled in, the door I assumed was closed as I snapped out of my realm just in time to be sat upright on a nearby couch. Looking around, I finally got my blurred sighting to settle down and zone in on the beauties in front of me. Evelyn went to work on helping me out of my coat and Destiny went to place my cane in a more better place.
-Evelyn-
Jase-on babe. What's wrong doll? You looked as if a ghost just came and snuck in front of you, for a scare. Well that and you look just...gone.
Destiny returned to the room as I could feel my body temperature rising. I was starting to feel an anxiety attack coming on and I knew that I had a new dosage of drugs in my coat. But I couldn't pop just one in front of the girls. Cause then I'd get asked all sorts of questions and they'd want some. Now it all started to sink in: Not only had I wasted one hundred and fifty dollars of my money, but I was starting to revert back to who I once was. Bad for me, good for Prophet and Pegasus.
-Destiny-
I know that look on him. He's relapsed. Jason...snap out of it babe. Your home now, with a loving family. Come on, just remember those sexual positions we all took turns in the last time you were here. Matter of fact, we came up with one where one of us could be blowing you and the other do a hand job. See which gives you an orgasm fist.
-Evelyn-
OR...me and her could finger each other and both give ya a hand job at the same time, if that one works better for ya sweets. Maybe even have a new position ready.
-Willard-
Here's one for you two. [Interjects self]. How about..I fuck one of you two, bridge myself back due my extremely amazing flexibility and eat the second one out..OR..I can use the horse head on my cane to see if I can push the nose in all the way into both of you.
I watched on as the two females glanced at each other with HUGE googly eyes at every option that was potential. Just as they conversed and broke free of that to look at me, I quickly darted out of my seat and drilled them both over with a clothesline. They folded back and rolled over as they glanced up at me from the sudden surge.
-Willard-
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention one thing. AGGRESSION! You see, this Sunday I face with Loco The Prophet and Pegasus in a Tag Team Title Defense. Now, I'm going to treat you two, like I'm going to make those two..My bitches. So what we're going to do, is have some fun, beating the hell out of each other, to really get us in the mood. That way, we're all fir....
And then I went down as Evelyn hiked her foot up to kick me in the balls at the same time Destiny swept my feet out from under me. Destiny then took the time to quickly get up, get onto the nearest dresser of sorts and come down with a legdrop into the crown jewels. Well after I got drug into the bedroom of course. So Destiny had struck again with one of the first things she did to me in two thousand one. This would go on for at least an hour, with spankings, slams, frog splashes, DDT's, foreign objects and of course, the whole fun of making up. No blood, just soreness. Then every single one of the ideas that got mentioned between us three, happened..Leaving my memory of the pills and my children...distant.
END
I finally returned home to California within several hours of making my little purchase. As I pulled into the drive way and turned the car off, I just stared at the product for a good ten minutes or so. It was an eleventh hour purchase, but dear god did I ever feel dirty about it now. All throughout the plane ride home all I could do was curse myself in my head for being stupid. But then call myself a genius for buying them, knowing full well whatever pain or issues I had going on could be wiped out temporarily.
So picking up the bottle as the pills inside rattled, I unscrewed the cap and popped it off. Oh you better fucking believe that I was ready to start taking em three at a time. But then my memory bank kicked in with the remembrance of September 23, 2001. That was the day that Kristen was born into this world and as I sat back and thought long and hard, all I could do was wonder.....do I even know myself anymore?
[Flashback]
-Willard-
It's....a GIRL!! HELL FUCKING YEAH, IT'S A GIRL!! WOOOOO
I was ecstatic with joy at the birth of my daughter. I looked different in two thousand one, clean shaven. Short hair. Wasn't AS MUCH of a wreck as I was now. So as the umbilical cord got cut from Kristen, and she was cleaned up..They handed her off to her mother. I was now a proud father and was getting that feeling inside of me like everything would be ok. Even over her screaming tirade, having just been born into this world. Yep, life couldn't have been any better back then as shown by the look on my face.
[End Flashback]
Shaking my head slowly, I clutched onto the bottle with as tight of a grasp as I did Terrance the night before. Now just wasn't the time to get under my skin, and inside the house I saw lights were on. That was another problem for me right there. Putting the feel of sex in front of the feel of being a father. Granted both Destiny and Evelyn were hot in their own rights, I was done with one and had already been with the other. I still had feelings for Destiny however. I mean, me and her had been through EVERYTHING. I'm not sure how much of a toll it's taken on the children, but I know little Kristen clings onto me for dear life every time we are split and then reunited. Autumn is too young to understand the magnitude of what's happening, but yeah...I loved my daughters more than any female I could date, be engaged to or ever marry. So the cap was placed back on the bottle and placed deep inside of my coat. I then grabbed my pimp cane and gym bag, with hopping out of my car to follow. On my way to the door, I recited a poem I thought of on my way home during the flight to LAX.
[Bitter Tears
Taste So Cold
Running Down My Face
The Routine Draws Old
Entering My Mouth
They Taste Of Death
The Last Sound I Hear
Isn't My Heartbeat, But My Final Breath
That's Just How I Feel
In This Stage of Age
Coming Undone On The Inside
Is Inner Coiled Rage
Call Me A Rattlesnake
With A Warning to Beware
Come On, Play With Me
It's Something of You I Dare
Taste the Defeat
As I Will Take The Loss
Buried Where I Lie
Shown Who's the True Boss
Laughter like A Jester
Except This Is No Joke
Shuffle the Deck Once More
Give Scarring A Little Poke
Gone Once More As I See
Nothing to Feel That I Haven't Before
This Game of Chutes and Ladders
Is Quite the Childish Bore
So Withdraw My Emotions
Using An ATM Card
Cut Loose the Ties That Bind
With A Large Metal Shard
I am Jason Lee Willard
Age Twenty Eight
On Occasions like This
I Wonder..What Is My Destined Fate?]
And then I relapsed for a second into a trance after letting those words play through my head like a broken record. I didn't realize the door had been opened, when I fell forward. Thankfully the girls we're there to catch me. Being pulled in, the door I assumed was closed as I snapped out of my realm just in time to be sat upright on a nearby couch. Looking around, I finally got my blurred sighting to settle down and zone in on the beauties in front of me. Evelyn went to work on helping me out of my coat and Destiny went to place my cane in a more better place.
-Evelyn-
Jase-on babe. What's wrong doll? You looked as if a ghost just came and snuck in front of you, for a scare. Well that and you look just...gone.
Destiny returned to the room as I could feel my body temperature rising. I was starting to feel an anxiety attack coming on and I knew that I had a new dosage of drugs in my coat. But I couldn't pop just one in front of the girls. Cause then I'd get asked all sorts of questions and they'd want some. Now it all started to sink in: Not only had I wasted one hundred and fifty dollars of my money, but I was starting to revert back to who I once was. Bad for me, good for Prophet and Pegasus.
-Destiny-
I know that look on him. He's relapsed. Jason...snap out of it babe. Your home now, with a loving family. Come on, just remember those sexual positions we all took turns in the last time you were here. Matter of fact, we came up with one where one of us could be blowing you and the other do a hand job. See which gives you an orgasm fist.
-Evelyn-
OR...me and her could finger each other and both give ya a hand job at the same time, if that one works better for ya sweets. Maybe even have a new position ready.
-Willard-
Here's one for you two. [Interjects self]. How about..I fuck one of you two, bridge myself back due my extremely amazing flexibility and eat the second one out..OR..I can use the horse head on my cane to see if I can push the nose in all the way into both of you.
I watched on as the two females glanced at each other with HUGE googly eyes at every option that was potential. Just as they conversed and broke free of that to look at me, I quickly darted out of my seat and drilled them both over with a clothesline. They folded back and rolled over as they glanced up at me from the sudden surge.
-Willard-
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention one thing. AGGRESSION! You see, this Sunday I face with Loco The Prophet and Pegasus in a Tag Team Title Defense. Now, I'm going to treat you two, like I'm going to make those two..My bitches. So what we're going to do, is have some fun, beating the hell out of each other, to really get us in the mood. That way, we're all fir....
And then I went down as Evelyn hiked her foot up to kick me in the balls at the same time Destiny swept my feet out from under me. Destiny then took the time to quickly get up, get onto the nearest dresser of sorts and come down with a legdrop into the crown jewels. Well after I got drug into the bedroom of course. So Destiny had struck again with one of the first things she did to me in two thousand one. This would go on for at least an hour, with spankings, slams, frog splashes, DDT's, foreign objects and of course, the whole fun of making up. No blood, just soreness. Then every single one of the ideas that got mentioned between us three, happened..Leaving my memory of the pills and my children...distant.
END