Post by Dollface on Sept 18, 2015 18:51:08 GMT -5
ALLOOOO PCW, guten abend!
Guess who has two thumbs and just got back from a Hardstyle competition in Germany?
Yeahhhh BOIEEEE it was this chick right here! It was AMAZING! I mean yeah, it was a short vacation since there’s only a two week break, buuuuut it was great. I even won second place! Third went to a guy in a green mohawk, and first went to this absurdly hot goth chick. I didn’t know goths did hardstyle, seems like something that would be too energetic for them, but I guess that’s my own bad for stereotyping. So anyway, I win second place at a full European dance competition...
...and I came back to facing Grimm, Stormmybritches, and Showtime. And Grimm. Did I mention Grimm? Coz I’m totally up against Grimm in there. But more on that later.
So!
Things have changed for me. I had this REALLY crazy dream that kind of - I dunno, fixed my head? I don’t... it’s hard to explain. Like, I feel less damaged, less fucked up. I still grab some peelz for the funsies, but I don’t need them like I did.
Need. Yeah. See, not everyone likes feeling like shit. I’m not Grimm, who will turn pain and strife into some kind of “life lesson” to let him hammer on people. I STILL don’t know why the hell he punched me after that match, only thing I can think of is that I fucked up his town and a lot of people died.
Okay so I guess that’s kind of a big deal and it stands to reason that would be A Thing. People dying and his town structure all screwed up. Man. I really failed there... I was trying so hard to do a good thing. I think maybe Showtime believed me. Believed IN me.
...maybe I should talk to him again soon.
Or maybe I should try not to have him beat my ass in the ring. I’ve SEEN those uppercuts of his. Goddamn, son. Showtime tried talking to me a while back, but I couldn’t... I couldn’t listen, I couldn’t SEE. I wanted so badly to be an actual PART of the Black Hand, they were using me to meet their own ends... but I wanted to belong. Somewhere. To anyone.
I had this dream - wait, I said that already. But I did. I had this dream that just CHANGED everything. This gorgeous woman showed up, with a guy I swear I’ve seen before, and they were talking to me about Nathan. Sounds crazy, but it gets weirder. So then they’re telling me that Nathan is a - well, that he’s. Um. Anyway, they’re talking to me about Nathan and I argue and she slaps the shit out of me.
Some people pay good money for that, Cotton.
Anyway. So it just... it was like it broke all the bad in me. It made it so I could start just... healing, and being me!
So, since I’m me, this new dude Justin Kaard? I guess he’s some hotshot who was here before, World Champion, blah blah blah. He’s reeeeally cute, but looks awfully young. I checked out some of the older footage of his work and holy SHIT that match with Nacho, and the Tron? Daaaaaamn. He had all this acclaim and all these fans and... he left. So like, where the hell did he GO? Why’d he leave? Is he gonna bail on this match, too?
Ugh.
SO not wanting to get dropped like that again.
Speaking of dropped, as in bombs, as in hamfisted segue, what the fuck is up with Stormm? Part of the Black Hand, and “Revelation”?
Dude, go FUCK yourself you pretentious little rich boy. Christ. Showtime’s got more money than you but you act more like tumblr’s most hated enemy of cis het white upper middle class male. You do this EVERY time. Something big comes up, and you gotta weasel your way into it. You come back and you’re the single brave soul facing off against Marshall’s Law... single only because the brass wouldn’t let anyone else participate. Now it’s the Black Hand, because suddenly you see another door cracked that you can jam your foot into and beg for some fed relevance. But yeah, whatever, tag team, la dee freakin’ da. I’ve beaten your ass, I’ve beaten the ass of OUR opponents for you as a tag team - it’s whatevs, bro.
Nathan... man... I don’t know. I don’t know what to tell you that you won’t use to hurt me. But that’s okay - I’ll wait. I’ll wait as long as it fucking takes, I’ll wait until the sun goes nova.
You’re mine, Nathan. You just don’t know it yet.
See you all at Trauma 179!
XoXoXoX Dollface
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